Happy Talk...

Right, enough moaning. Grumble grumble...I realise I've sounded a lot like how Alex Ferguson would sound if he ever lost his Wrigleys Extra. My apologies to those who are fed up of this...grumble grumble.

But no I've been a lot happier lately. I've gone back to Uni where my tutor has granted me some extensions on my work so I have a lot less stress from that. Nontheless I really need to pick up the pace on this work if im going to catch up. I've been working a lot at the co-op lately, more shifts = more money = more fatigue = more sleep = less work done = more stress = more food (for comfort) = less money = more shifts. Perfect cycle right? Thinking of selling that concept to the Tour de France. But I'm going to try and stay positive. If I can get this work done ASAP, then a huge chunk of that cycle is taken out...the brakes, now I can freewheel all I like. How's that for a philosophical pun eh?

And now an announcement: My fellow bloggers, I have not been entirely truthful with you. I recently expressed my desire to go to America during April to visit my girlfriend. Unfortunately this will not happen for a number of reasons; firstly I don't think i'll be able to get the money in time, I could ask to borrow some off people, but that's not fair. Whilst I know that I can pay it back, I wouldn't want that pressure. Secondly, I cant get the time off work, Easter means all the oldies get first dibs on holidays as they have kids, although my new shotgun and youth luring puppies will put an end to that... I'm kidding of course...probably. Finally I'd miss my Mum's birthday, something that has happened too many times now, be it because I've been in Spain, Russia or some other place. So I'm determined to get at least 2 days off work to get home for that.

Instead of going over there I've told my Sarah that I'll give her some money for her birthday to pay for a substancial chunk of her flights. It's only fair, she pays so much to get over here, and she's going to be my birthday present when she gets here in June. So thats my plan for now. Heck, only 104 days to wait...it's not long, infact I anticipate that fuel will only be £7.84 a litre by then. Yes that right, time is now no longer measured in days, but by the latest fuel prices. Satire.

There you go Bloggeriffic Blog Bloggies.

Hope thats a better one for you.

Recovery...

Hey all,

Sorry for being so miserable to everyone lately. Getting over Sarah's departure has taken more out of me than ever. I think about her so much everyday, but I'm now slowly learning to accept that I'm just going to have to get used to it now. After all if i didnt get used to her not being here then I wouldn't be so excited when she does get here again, her absence makes her presence all the more special.

So I've got back to uni and realised that I'm so far behind on some work. I was really worried, but I spoke to my tutor and thankfully he's granted me 2 weeks extensions on my assignments. That's a massive help, but I still need to make sure that I knuckle down and get the work done at the same rate that I would have had my Grandfather not passed away.

So I had an idea whilst I was moping about Sarah going, what if I went to visit her before she got back over here. My only opportunity would be through my easter break which is the first 3 weeks in April. I checked flights for a 2 weeks stay and its only around £400, which I think I could potentially achieve, but I need to concentrate and save save save in such little time. I wish someone could help me but I have no fairy god-mother sadly....jeez I sound so emo :p

I've gone back to work and asked for as many extra shifts as possible to help me get the money to see Sarah again ASAP. I have no idea whether or not this will go ahead or not yet but I hope to have an idea by the weekend. To those of you who care, I'll keep you posted on this blog.

To all my family and friends who have rang me and came up to me to check I'm ok, thank you so much for your support, I really really appreciate it. You've made me feel so much better. Thank You!

So my bloggeriffic blog bloggies...I know you'd love me to type more, but its late and I cba. :p

Back in Town...

Hey guys, sorry that I havent written for a while, it's been a pretty hectic week, travelling back and forth between Bournemouth and Cambridgeshire, attending my Grandfathers funeral and ofcourse preparing for Sarah's departure from here.

So we went back to Cambs last weekend but then headed back on Monday to sort a couple of things and see my 3rd housemate Ben who is back from Barcelona for a while, its been good seeing him, he makes this house a lot more entertaining, fun and lively. Once i got back I was faced with a £220 gas bill for us all to split, there was a bit of conflict between me and one of my housemates as he refused to pay the full amount, heck thats fine, but if he's going to be that pinnickty about it then I really couldnt care, he either pays up or spends the year living with people who really dont like him, which isnt that far from the truth already. I don't understand some people, they seem bent on making things as awkward as possible, they show little presence in your life, little worth, little meaning, but they can cause a lot of stress, anger and just plain annoyance in our lives. However, my view is that it is those who will be left alone in life, who people will avoid, who people will laugh about when then think about them later in life ... therefore I kind of pity them.

The funeral of anyone you know is never nice, but it can bring some good in different ways. Maybe I didnt word that right, it sounds quite horrible but the point i'm making is that it gave dozens of family members a chance to see each other again. I saw people in my family that I hadn't seen in over 10 years, I saw people that I had forgot even existed. There again I do have a huge family, but it was nice to see all my cousins again. Whilst repetitive it does feel good to explain to each one what my current life situation is. Then you find those who haven't done so much with their lives since I last saw them, hey nothing wrong with that, each to their own. Some like hard core techno, others prefere to slowdance through life. Sad to say goodbye to my Grandad though, I didn't get to see him as much as I would have liked before he died, he was bedridden for a good while, but as crap as an excuse as it sounds, RAIL TRAVEL is costing a bomb for me at the moment, £100 to get home in some cases, i just dont have that money. But I was there to commemorate his death with my family, I'm glad I got to be there for that.

Today is the second worst day of the last 2 months, tomorrow will be by far the worst. For those
who have heard me whining these last few weeks, you'll know that it's because my beautiful girlfriend Sarah is leaving to go back to America again. We're optimistic, hopefully she'll be back by June but we'll see. Me and her both know that we're going to break down in Heathrow airport tomorrow, it's going to kill me to see her walk through security and know that that will be the last few seconds I will actually see her physically for months. Considering she's been by my side every single day for 60 days, my life is going to seem so different without her here. I wont be able to ride a bus, cook dinner, watch a film or even fall asleep without thinking of her. It's going to feel very lonely for me for a while. But this day was always going to come, just came a little too fast for my liking.

But enough moaning. It's time that I looked forward on my life ahead rather than looking back on what I've had. These 2 months have been absolutely incredible and I have memories to last a lifetime. I know that I can live with the girl that I love and I intend to do so in the future. She's the thing thats made me happier than anything else in my life. I share everything with her, and I want to find new ways of making her happy. I'll start thinking of that the second she leaves.

I'm sure I'll end up writing a blubbery blog tomorrow when I'm in despair about her absence, but every day brings me closer to her again.

To all my family, thank you for you support and care, thank you for being the best family I could ask for.

To all my friends and co-workers, thank you for keeping me laughing and for making me feel like I have a really decent life.

To my beautiful Sarah, thank you for being the most amazing, beautiful, caring, sweet, loving and fun girlfriend in the world, thank you for being my best friend.

And to all my bloggeriffic blog bloggies....thank you for listening

Bad News...

Well guys and gals I was hoping to write you a new upbeat blog about whats been going on and what fun things i've been up to. Unfortunately late yesterday evening I received the unfortunate news that my Grandfather has passed away. It's a very sad time for me and my family, especially my Mum. Therefore I have decided to move my return back home to Cambridgeshire forward to either Wednesday or Thursday of this week to support my Mum. I've spoken to my University Tutor and will speak to those at work tomorrow so no problems arise due to my absence. I feel so terrible that all this has happened now, I feel bad for my beautiful Sarah too as I cant see us having too much to do until I know that everything will be ok with my family.

I'll see you all soon and hope you understand why I'm going home.

All the best my bloggeriffic blog bloggies.

Apologies...

To those who have started to keep up to date with my life through the blogosphere, I apologise for my lack of posts lately, i've just been so busy. Here's why...

Ok so last weekend I took my beautiful Sarah back to Cambridgeshire again to see my family and to go and watch the local pantomime (which I used to be in for 4 years), it was so good, but I really miss doing it, the thrill of making people laugh doing stupid things is much more exciting when on a stage. I met up with all the old cast and crew afterwards and I felt like a filmstar, they all came to say hi, asked how I was doing and said that they wished I could return. They put on a fantastic show and I just want to say well done, it was brilliant, plus Sarah loved it.

We got back and the week was pretty normal, although me and Sarah were planning to do something really magical for Valentines Day such as travelling to France for a few days but we've decided that its simply too expensive and there isnt enough time to plan it, so we're going to save the money and hopefully head back to Cambridgeshire again next weekend to see my family and also will hopefully be joined by my eldest sister Claire who now resides with my Dad in Spain. It's so strange how you can grow up with people, seeing them everyday of your life and not bat an eyelid, but once they leave home, you really look forward to the next time you see them. I love my family, they support me so well and I can have such a good time with them, I just hope that nothing will ever come between me and my family.

So Sarah and I have been getting upset a lot lately because we know we're on the back nine of her time here, 2 months will soon be up and i'll be sat with her on that coach to Heathrow again soon, it's going to kill me. I'm so used to waking up next to her every morning now, holding her hand when walking to the shop and coming home after work to a huge hug. I was so upset last time she left and that was after only 2 weeks of being together, Christ knows how I will be this time...(strike that...Christ knows bugger all because he is dead and has no supernatural powers, contrary to what some vastly edited book may have millions of idiots believe). But I keep reminding her that once she leaves then the process begins again, getting her over here.

On the topic of false beliefs, there are those out there who believe that if they do wrong then they simply have to bide their time and just wait for things to 'blow over' and will never issue an apology. To those people i say thats fine, but done expect anything from me, if you act unjustly towards me and you are fully aware that you have then unless you apologise and actually attempt to make amens then you can forget any tie with me. It makes you a much stronger person to apologise than to do nothing, strength or lazyness - your choice.

Didnt want to be nagging with negativity but I'm just fed up of these kind of people bullying others into thinking its their way or no way. Democracy lives, so does justice, reason and honesty, lets try and enforce it.

Right, quite a long blog I know, but im making up for the past week of absence. So until next time bloggeriffic blog bloggies....